Need some help in understanding life...?

One thing all girls like is for a guy to be confident! Dont think you are going to mess up before you even try. I know this is easier said then done, but if you are always too afraid of failure, you will eventually just give up. And who cares if you are strange. People these days are so into fitting in and sticking to the norm, but being different from others gives you a uniqueness about your personality. you seem like a sweet guy and im sorry it is so hard for you to meet friends. you should try to get into volunteering to meet people or any social events. Find something else you enjoy doing so you can become friends with people who share that interest. Join a gym; this is a healthy hobby, and a great way to meet people. Good luck and I hope this helps!